Cast not away therefore your confidence,
which hath great recompence of reward.
For ye have need of patience, that,
after ye have done the will of God,
ye might receive the promise.
[Hebrews 10:35–36]
I started packing our house this week. It made me sad. I realized that I will never have another party in this house. I will never have another Christmas tree, trick-or-treaters at this door, or cook a huge turkey in the oven. This has been a GREAT house. It has served us well. We have brought 3 babies home here. We have great neighbors and my boys love playing in the yards and cul-de-sac that drew us to this house in the first place. Sure there are quirks and things that make me want to pull my hair out at times, but what house doesn't? The doubt of this being a good decision has started to really set in.
Our new house is completely different in layout from this one. What if I end up hating it? We are actually going from a 4 bedroom to a 3 bedroom. What if it's too cramped? The closets are smaller in the new house. Where will I put all the "stuff"? Yes, it's a bigger flat yard, but that means more to maintain. What if we can't handle it? And the view out my kitchen window is not as pretty as my current one. How I will miss it. Sure it's a 3 car garage, but you have to walk up stairs to get in the house. What if I break my leg? How will I handle them then?!?! Our neighbors here are safe and predictable. What if the neighbors at the new house end up being psycho? There is so much to do to make the transition! How will I get it all done? What, what, what??? Why, why, why??? How, how, how???
This is when I really have to dig deep in my faith bucket. I know God led us to this house. I know He's chosen it for us. I would have stayed put if that was His plan for us, but it wasn't. I don't have all the answers. I don't know how to fill in the blanks of the how's, why's, when's, where's. But God does and I know He has my best interest at hand and can do many more amazing things with me and my life then I ever could on my own. So I may cry a bit the next few weeks. I may have some increased anxiety, but I will stay the course. I will do what He has asked us to do. I will trust Him.
When I have been laden with anxiety in the past, I have listened to this talk often. It is a great by one of the greatest LDS orators of our time. He is an Apostle of the Lord Jesus Christ. He oozes faith and confidence in God and His plan for us. It's contagious. If you are having doubts and fears, listen to it. It will sooth your heart and mind. It will make you know that as long as you have faith and do what the Lord asks of you, it will all workout. IT WILL ALL WORKOUT!!
Elder Jeffery R. Holland of the
Quorum of the Twelve Apostles of
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints
Have a great weekend!
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